I was standing there
in the hospital's
emergency reception
Looking at my distant relative
Battling for life
at one side
Listening to the Doctor explaining the
huge hospital charges
on the other side
I felt numb at once
and then
a huge conflict between my
emotional & rational minds
I was deeply scared and trembled
at the moment where
her life was at the mercy of my decision
My emotional part urged to consent the emergency treatment & admission
While my rational part
argued with practical reasons
She is single
No family to support
As my rational part continued, You dont know how much it costs? can you sponsor her treatment? She is old, has lived her life...
The doctor otherside pressing me for immediate consent for the emergency treatment
Looking at the old lady on the bed, thinking O Lord, why did you put me in this spot,
As I was listening to my rational brain,
My face nodded to the doctor to proceed with treatment, as they rushed her on the stretcher
I sit here outside the ICU after 3 days
Waiting for my turn to visit her
On seeing me from her bed, her eyes widened with a faint smile
Tears rolledout of my eyes, a flash of that difficult moment crossed my mind
I thank my emotional brain, for making that decision for me
A decision in a fraction of a second
A decision that was crucial
A decision that was difficult
A decision which could have led me to a life time guilt!
A decision of humanity
A decision of compassion
A decision to remember for a life time
29-Feb-2024
